What’s Not Okay

Sometimes I can be a very big ungrateful lot. I guess we can all be like this sometimes. I am ungrateful in so many ways. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, I forget to pray and praying every morning is very important. You should always thank God for allowing you to see a new day.

I am a very big complainer. I have been told a couple of times but I didn’t fully realize it till recently. I complain about almost every little thing and it’s not okay. I should be very grateful for all the things I have but I’m not. I guess it’s human nature but it’s not okay.

I overthink a lot. Anyone that is an over thinker can understand. Overthinking is the worst thing to ever happen to anyone. Wheels are constantly turning in your head and it’s a never ending cycle. And because of this, a headache is sure to be constant and you get tired without really exerting yourself physically.

School has been one hell of a place lately. It’s been very stressful and am starting to feel like it’s affecting my mental health. I offer five courses but each course load is out of this world ,I swear. It’s a never ending battle of trying to keep up and be ahead of the lecturer and cram all those cases and stuff. I feel like my brain is going to explode 🤯

All these factors and more have been so mentally draining that I feel like laying in bed all day but then again I remember all the things I will miss in class if I don’t go. So I have to drag myself out of bed and be up and going. I put a smile on my face although am dying inside. I want to sleep all day but I know I can’t . Ok this is turning into a rant 😂.

But you know what I’m forever grateful for? I’m forever grateful for the close friends I have. I love those people a whole lot. I have been going through a rough patch recently, and they have really been there for me. Always a call or text away no matter where they are in the world. I love you guys so much ❤️.

What am trying to say is that, it’s okay not to be okay sometimes. It’s okay to feel overwhelmed at times. But what’s not okay is for you to stop pushing. We’re all learning this “adulting” thing and no one of going to make you do things unless you really want to. 

It might seem that the world is crashing down right now, but trust me it’s going to get better. And you could feel better if you take time out and take care of yourself. Give yourself a treat cause you deserve it. If you have a self care routine I suggest you use it .

And don’t forget, “it all gets better with time”.